{"id":540,"date":"2021-05-22T08:12:14","date_gmt":"2021-05-22T15:12:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/nicoleroy.net\/blog\/?p=540"},"modified":"2021-05-22T08:17:47","modified_gmt":"2021-05-22T15:17:47","slug":"requiem-for-my-former-self","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/nicoleroy.net\/blog\/?p=540","title":{"rendered":"Requiem For My Former Self"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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I need to honor Nicholas Spencer Roy. Although I’ve said I don’t like or believe in the othering of the self that happens a lot with trans people when they talk about their lives before transition, I think there is a degree of truth to this. I still feel like me, and you can still see a lot of what I used to look like in my face and body, but it’s rapidly fading. I definitely look like a woman version of myself now. After FFS, that will only become more pronounced. So, I want to say that the man named Nicholas Roy, Nick, was a good, kind, strong, compassionate person. He loved deeply, cared greatly for those he loved. His strength to endure through a world that didn’t know he carried me inside was impressive. Although I caused him pain, I think I also brought him kindness, sweetness, glimmers of beauty. Nick and I needed each other. He’s still here, but now he gets to rest. I love him, I will always love him.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(Originally posted on social media May 16, 2021)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I need to honor Nicholas Spencer Roy. Although I’ve said I don’t like or believe in the othering of the self that happens a lot with trans people when they talk about their lives before transition, I think there is a degree of truth to this. I still feel like me, and you can still … <\/p>\n

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